awkwardness

It's Saturday and I'm leaching off of a friends internet. I've been sitting by myself for the past 2 hours trying to decide if I should leave. Isn't that always awkward?! The friend in question was just going out for a couple hours while I continued to nurse my hangover by sleeping more. The thing keeping me here is the promise of a free lunch when they get back. Alas that was around 11:30... it's been far more than a couple hours. I'm starting to get hungry.... would it be rude to leave? I'm always unsure how to treat situations like this. It wouldn't be a big deal if I had a working phone but my phone is not working due to my cat spilling water on it yesterday while I was sleeping. That would make things easier for me, to call and go. I just don't know... in my head it's far past lunch. I wonder if I'm obsessing more over this because today I'm (attempting) to quit smoking. I know I thought I'd be one of those people who you'd have to pull the cig from my cold dead hands. I'm actually attempting to quit which so far has made me more of an obsessive crazy person than usual. I've been close to tears on a few occasions making me want to stay here because I'm afraid if I do leave I'll be upset and will buy smokes. Trying to be strong has never been so much fun! It's even more odd because friend in question has roommates. There are roommates home who have yet to actually talk to me that much. Which I guess is fine... it's just making me more awkward. Making me obsess more on my awkwardness... making me want to smoke. This cycle is really fun!! Maybe I'll just go back to sleep. I thought internet would help me feel better but it's just making me more hungry and more angry...