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I guess part of me is wondering why I continue this blog. My ranting doesn't seem to help me at all. Lately I wonder if my cynical self is driving me insane. Whahahahaha (that's a manic laugh). Yet I rant anyways! Less than a month I will be going into the "special" doctor. Unfortunately not the one that just gives out birth control and abortions. Although that would make things simple for me if that was the only problem I had right now. I know pity fest, right? I don't ever ask people to feel sorry for me I just like whining about my problems just like the rest of the world. Luckily for me I'm pretty good at ranting sarcastically which scares away the people that might actually care. I'm worn out and its monday. Even though I got paid friday my check is gone and my account is negative. Seriously is that possiable? It's making me wonder why I continue to think that this whole being an "adult thing" is really my thing. If I had a sugar daddy he could pay the electric bill I owe which I told them I would pay friday which means my electric will most likely be out by the time I get home! Anyone else feel like paying my 230 dollar bill for me? I really doubt it! I might be able to sweet talk them tonight, explaining all of my funds have went to doctor bills but I will gladly try doing payments... when i can... which will most likely be never. I wonder if I can throw away my morals and become a stripper on the weekends? Meaning I'd need breast implants too... this is starting to get too hard!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ehhh... well if zombies want to take over now that would be great! I can hear it now... I couldn't pay my electric this month on time because I was saving humanity. Do you think you could give me a break? No? Well... you suck!